Chapter II
I pretended to be asleep as Kanda walked up, too embarrassed to talk to him. 'Did
I really say that?' I couldn't help but blush at the fact of what I had said the
previous night. I blushed even more when Kanda's warm hand ruffled my hair.
"I know you aren't sleeping, Moyashi." He said, his voice teasing. I stiffened, my
breathing catching in my throat. I really didn't want to talk to him, but right
now, I guess I don't have much of a choice.
"H-hey, K-K-Kanda." I said, stuttering as my words from the previous
night still swarmed around like bees, pestering and annoying.
'Could you kiss me again.....I just can't believe I said that to him! I
wonder if it’s possible to die of
embarrassment....'
My face flushed even redder and my eyes shot open as his lips brushed
softly against my scratched cheek.
"W-what?" was all I could spit out as I tried to cover my blushing face
in the abnormally fluffy pillow. I shivered in ecstasy as his tongue worked its'
way down my neck and onto my exposed
back.
"K-Kanda!" I said, trying to suppress the moan of pleasure that was
attempting to fall past my lips. "S-to-" I had to clamp my mouth shut to stifle
another moan as his fingers traced lines all around the small of my back. I
subconsciously arched my back, the pleasure I was feeling becoming more evident
to everyone else (Even though we were the only ones in the room.). I had to
hold my breath as Kanda sat on top of me, his jean-clad legs straddling my
half-covered hips.
"Kanda! Stop! I don't wan-" I was cut off by a moan that managed to
escape my lips, and I could feel Kandas' breath on my ear as he leaned towards
it, making my heart beat faster as his voice echoed through my
ear.
"Your voice is telling me to stop," He said as my back arched once again
in pure pleasure. “But your body is telling me to do whatever I please." I hated
that my body reacted this way towards him, even when I just wanted him to get
off of me.
"Child molester." I muttered under my breath and he bit my earlobe,
causing me to moan louder.
"What did you just call me?" His voice was seductive, and I rolled my
hips into his again.
"A
child molester." I said once again, more clearly this time. He laughed, his
tongue tracing routes out on the side of my face, making shivers of pleasure
run down my back.
"At this point, I highly doubt that it would be molestation if I screwed
you here and now." His words made me want him and despise him at the same time.
'I can't believe I'm falling for this guy.' I thought inwardly. 'He doesn't
respect my personal space, and every time he's seen me since last nights
request, he can't keep his hands (or tongue) to himself.' He rubbed himself
against me, causing my lower area to stiffen in pleasure, even though I tried
to keep it from doing so.
"Just let me be, please. Kanda, just get off of me and leave me alone.
Please don-Ahhhh!" His hand grazed my length, causing me to gasp in shock and
reluctant joy.
"So you like that, don't you?" I tried to shake my head, but his hand
grasped my shaft and gave it an experimental rub, causing my hips to rock and my
hair to splay out everywhere as I threw my head back in a loud moan that echoed
through the room and sounded a lot like 'Kanda'.
"I thought so." He said, fisting me some more. "K-Kanda!" His named echoed through
the large room, and moans kept emanating from my body. I could tell that Kanda
was loving my contradicted protests, and I kept them
coming.
"S-stop! Pl-please!" My voice was shaking and I could tell Kanda knew I
was using all of the conscious will had to prevent from telling him to just suck
me already.
"You're pretty hard for someone who's telling me to stop my erotic
actions." Said Kanda teasingly, pumping my hardened erection faster and with
more pressure, forcing me to say his name in leisure-filled pleasure. I snapped
out of my protests, moaning ecstatically pleasure.
"Just tell me to suck you already. We both know you want it." I shook my
head, even though I knew I did. He shrugged and got off of me, closing the door
quietly behind him, but not before making a shocking
remark.
"You were only going to be my sex toy, anyway. You really think I'd fall for you, Allen?
You're even more of an idiot than I first thought."
"What's wrong with me? What's wrong with him? Why? Why him?" My
voice was shaking as I cried.
"What's wrong?" I jumped as Lavi spoke, wincing as my arm moved.
"W-where'd y-you come from, L-Lavi?!" He shook his head in mock
frustration.
"Over the rainbow. The door was open, baka-chan." I was still crying, and
Lavi looked at my tear streaked face..
"Well, what did Kanda do to you?" He asked, seeing as he could read me
like an open book.
I said nothing, crying taking up to much of my air.
"What did he do?" Asked Lavi asked once again, not letting the subject drop.
"H-he s-said t-t-that I w-wa-wasn't going t-to b-be anyt-thing bu-but
a-." I was crying so hard that I couldn't finish the sentence.
"Allen, seriously, what the hell did he say to you to make you like
this?!" Lavi's voice was harsh now, and I recoiled, still unable to
speak.
"Allen! Tell me, dammit!" He was getting mad now, and I couldn't blame
him, but I couldn't find the words to describe the twisted laughter, the
malevolence, the demeanor, the ice, the hatred, the coldness, the discrimination
in Kanda's voice as he said the comment that forced me to sit like this, heart
torn up into so many pieces that I felt as some of them would never be found,
crying harder than I ever had in my life.
'I hate that bastard. I hate him. I hope he dies. I hope he dies. I hope he dies.
I want him to die. I want him to die. I want him to die a slow, painful death so
I can laugh at him, just like he laughed at me. Cruel, sick, twisted laughter.'
"ALLEN! Don't make me go get Kanda and force him to tell me AFTER I bring
him back in here!" Lavi was pissed, and I thought he would actually go and get
the man I now thought of as the Satan himself.
"P-p-p-ple-ase d-d-don't b-b-b-b-b-b-ring t-t-t-t-t-that m-m-m-man
an-ywhe-re n-ne-a-a-r m-m-me." I managed to choke out, barely more than a
whisper.
"So I was right, you don't want to see him. Seriously, what did he say to
you?" Lavi's voice was softer now, and it made me want to tell him everything,
if only I could find the words.
I wanted to tell someone, anyone, about everything, how I was thinking about
letting my entire life spill away from me if I could feel better as it did, or
how I feel in love with Kanda the first time he spoke to me (Even though he
looked like he wanted to kill me.)
"Please stop crying, Allen. He couldn't have said something that bad."
Lavi was obviously trying to coax me into revealing what Kanda had said, and I
snapped at him unintentionally.
"How would you feel if the person you were in love with said you weren't
going to be anything more than a sex toy, right to your face?!" I screamed at
him through my tears, the pain in my chest
unbearable.
"He said that to you?!?!" Asked Lavi, shocked and pissed at the same time.
I nodded, once again sobbing too hard to speak.
"Do you want me to go get Lenalee?" He asked, not sure how to comfort
me.
"What about -Oh my God, Allen, what's wrong?!" Said Lenalee as she came
into the room with a plate of food.
"That bastard Kanda told him he's nothing but a sex toy to him." Said
Lavi quietly, not wanting to make me more upset than I already was.
"What?!?! Just wait until I get my hands on him..." She turned to me, her
voice softening.
"Are you alright, Allen?" She asked, empathy brewing behind the now
worried features of her face.
I shook my head, feeling guilty because I told the truth.
"Why would he be okay?! Think, Lenalee! The person he's in love with
basically told him that he didn't hold a place in his heart and he was nothing
more than a hoe or a prostitute. How would you feel?! Would you be 'alright' or
'okay'?!" Lavi screamed at her, drawing in attention from nearby
people.
I wanted nothing more than to curl up and die, seeing as that was most likely
the least painful thing for me to do now.
I really say that?' I couldn't help but blush at the fact of what I had said the
previous night. I blushed even more when Kanda's warm hand ruffled my hair.
"I know you aren't sleeping, Moyashi." He said, his voice teasing. I stiffened, my
breathing catching in my throat. I really didn't want to talk to him, but right
now, I guess I don't have much of a choice.
"H-hey, K-K-Kanda." I said, stuttering as my words from the previous
night still swarmed around like bees, pestering and annoying.
'Could you kiss me again.....I just can't believe I said that to him! I
wonder if it’s possible to die of
embarrassment....'
My face flushed even redder and my eyes shot open as his lips brushed
softly against my scratched cheek.
"W-what?" was all I could spit out as I tried to cover my blushing face
in the abnormally fluffy pillow. I shivered in ecstasy as his tongue worked its'
way down my neck and onto my exposed
back.
"K-Kanda!" I said, trying to suppress the moan of pleasure that was
attempting to fall past my lips. "S-to-" I had to clamp my mouth shut to stifle
another moan as his fingers traced lines all around the small of my back. I
subconsciously arched my back, the pleasure I was feeling becoming more evident
to everyone else (Even though we were the only ones in the room.). I had to
hold my breath as Kanda sat on top of me, his jean-clad legs straddling my
half-covered hips.
"Kanda! Stop! I don't wan-" I was cut off by a moan that managed to
escape my lips, and I could feel Kandas' breath on my ear as he leaned towards
it, making my heart beat faster as his voice echoed through my
ear.
"Your voice is telling me to stop," He said as my back arched once again
in pure pleasure. “But your body is telling me to do whatever I please." I hated
that my body reacted this way towards him, even when I just wanted him to get
off of me.
"Child molester." I muttered under my breath and he bit my earlobe,
causing me to moan louder.
"What did you just call me?" His voice was seductive, and I rolled my
hips into his again.
"A
child molester." I said once again, more clearly this time. He laughed, his
tongue tracing routes out on the side of my face, making shivers of pleasure
run down my back.
"At this point, I highly doubt that it would be molestation if I screwed
you here and now." His words made me want him and despise him at the same time.
'I can't believe I'm falling for this guy.' I thought inwardly. 'He doesn't
respect my personal space, and every time he's seen me since last nights
request, he can't keep his hands (or tongue) to himself.' He rubbed himself
against me, causing my lower area to stiffen in pleasure, even though I tried
to keep it from doing so.
"Just let me be, please. Kanda, just get off of me and leave me alone.
Please don-Ahhhh!" His hand grazed my length, causing me to gasp in shock and
reluctant joy.
"So you like that, don't you?" I tried to shake my head, but his hand
grasped my shaft and gave it an experimental rub, causing my hips to rock and my
hair to splay out everywhere as I threw my head back in a loud moan that echoed
through the room and sounded a lot like 'Kanda'.
"I thought so." He said, fisting me some more. "K-Kanda!" His named echoed through
the large room, and moans kept emanating from my body. I could tell that Kanda
was loving my contradicted protests, and I kept them
coming.
"S-stop! Pl-please!" My voice was shaking and I could tell Kanda knew I
was using all of the conscious will had to prevent from telling him to just suck
me already.
"You're pretty hard for someone who's telling me to stop my erotic
actions." Said Kanda teasingly, pumping my hardened erection faster and with
more pressure, forcing me to say his name in leisure-filled pleasure. I snapped
out of my protests, moaning ecstatically pleasure.
"Just tell me to suck you already. We both know you want it." I shook my
head, even though I knew I did. He shrugged and got off of me, closing the door
quietly behind him, but not before making a shocking
remark.
"You were only going to be my sex toy, anyway. You really think I'd fall for you, Allen?
You're even more of an idiot than I first thought."
"What's wrong with me? What's wrong with him? Why? Why him?" My
voice was shaking as I cried.
"What's wrong?" I jumped as Lavi spoke, wincing as my arm moved.
"W-where'd y-you come from, L-Lavi?!" He shook his head in mock
frustration.
"Over the rainbow. The door was open, baka-chan." I was still crying, and
Lavi looked at my tear streaked face..
"Well, what did Kanda do to you?" He asked, seeing as he could read me
like an open book.
I said nothing, crying taking up to much of my air.
"What did he do?" Asked Lavi asked once again, not letting the subject drop.
"H-he s-said t-t-that I w-wa-wasn't going t-to b-be anyt-thing bu-but
a-." I was crying so hard that I couldn't finish the sentence.
"Allen, seriously, what the hell did he say to you to make you like
this?!" Lavi's voice was harsh now, and I recoiled, still unable to
speak.
"Allen! Tell me, dammit!" He was getting mad now, and I couldn't blame
him, but I couldn't find the words to describe the twisted laughter, the
malevolence, the demeanor, the ice, the hatred, the coldness, the discrimination
in Kanda's voice as he said the comment that forced me to sit like this, heart
torn up into so many pieces that I felt as some of them would never be found,
crying harder than I ever had in my life.
'I hate that bastard. I hate him. I hope he dies. I hope he dies. I hope he dies.
I want him to die. I want him to die. I want him to die a slow, painful death so
I can laugh at him, just like he laughed at me. Cruel, sick, twisted laughter.'
"ALLEN! Don't make me go get Kanda and force him to tell me AFTER I bring
him back in here!" Lavi was pissed, and I thought he would actually go and get
the man I now thought of as the Satan himself.
"P-p-p-ple-ase d-d-don't b-b-b-b-b-b-ring t-t-t-t-t-that m-m-m-man
an-ywhe-re n-ne-a-a-r m-m-me." I managed to choke out, barely more than a
whisper.
"So I was right, you don't want to see him. Seriously, what did he say to
you?" Lavi's voice was softer now, and it made me want to tell him everything,
if only I could find the words.
I wanted to tell someone, anyone, about everything, how I was thinking about
letting my entire life spill away from me if I could feel better as it did, or
how I feel in love with Kanda the first time he spoke to me (Even though he
looked like he wanted to kill me.)
"Please stop crying, Allen. He couldn't have said something that bad."
Lavi was obviously trying to coax me into revealing what Kanda had said, and I
snapped at him unintentionally.
"How would you feel if the person you were in love with said you weren't
going to be anything more than a sex toy, right to your face?!" I screamed at
him through my tears, the pain in my chest
unbearable.
"He said that to you?!?!" Asked Lavi, shocked and pissed at the same time.
I nodded, once again sobbing too hard to speak.
"Do you want me to go get Lenalee?" He asked, not sure how to comfort
me.
"What about -Oh my God, Allen, what's wrong?!" Said Lenalee as she came
into the room with a plate of food.
"That bastard Kanda told him he's nothing but a sex toy to him." Said
Lavi quietly, not wanting to make me more upset than I already was.
"What?!?! Just wait until I get my hands on him..." She turned to me, her
voice softening.
"Are you alright, Allen?" She asked, empathy brewing behind the now
worried features of her face.
I shook my head, feeling guilty because I told the truth.
"Why would he be okay?! Think, Lenalee! The person he's in love with
basically told him that he didn't hold a place in his heart and he was nothing
more than a hoe or a prostitute. How would you feel?! Would you be 'alright' or
'okay'?!" Lavi screamed at her, drawing in attention from nearby
people.
I wanted nothing more than to curl up and die, seeing as that was most likely
the least painful thing for me to do now.